CAUTION : Irritated Mom. The following may contain less than loving comments. Any lack of adoration or joy is completely and wholly the truth.
Can someone please tell me how I can share in one breath the joys and moment to moment delights of being a mom, and all of a sudden “BAM!” I can only see through eyes of irritation, frustration, and simmering anger?
“Can we have anything nice?” Is the constant mantra from my husband Paul. I hear these words when he tries to start our car amidst an array of stray papers, Mcdonald toys and sticky cupholders. I hear these words when the sound of our children slamming any door in the house, rings in our ears (this includes kitchen cabinets, sliding doors,pocket doors and car doors.)
I opened our kitchen pantry the other day to find the peanut butter (picture above) with Reynolds Wrap being used as a type of lid-sling for the broken top.
What makes this so curiously intersting is this: there is a hole in the middle of the lid. Not a crack on the side, not a chip around the rim, but a hole in the middle of the plastic lid.
Do my children have access to some type of drill or peanut butter skillsaw, that I am not aware of? Today, when I went to turn on my kitchen faucet, the handle came off in my hand. The guilty suspect is a 13year old boy we call “son”. I have watched him use this faucet in ways that would earn a pat on the back from any NASCAR driver.
Irritated. Annoyed. Frustrated. You bet your tooshie I am. I feel like an abused woman, “But, I love them!” I silently scream. I need them. I couldn’t survive without them.
It got me to thinking, what I’m feeling may possibly be “Stockholm Syndrome”. Now, before you roll your eyes hear me out. I looked this syndrome up in the dictionary.
Stockholm syndrome n. A psychological condition in which hostages or victims of kid-nappings (my emphasis/hyphen added) sometimes develop positive feelings towards their captors, on whom they depend for their survival.
C’mon, admit it, you know it sounds like a completely logical explanation.
Originally posted 11/14/07